done.

I hate losing friends. Somehow, I’ve lost another one. And the thing is, I see him in class, and he acts like it’s no big deal. Sit down, Take notes, Leave.  Not even the courteous, ‘How are you?’ anymore. Others have tried to tell me that he’s dealing with a lot of issues and stress right now, and that’s why he’s not around, but to be honest I think thats a bunch of crap. I have dealt with tons of stress in the past and still been able to hold onto my friends.  At first, I thought it was my fault, that I was neglecting him…. but then I realized its not me, it’s him.  I’ve been able to hold onto my friends; he, on the other hand, has decided to focus all his energy on his girlfriend, and no one else. And he just doesn’t care. After everything we’ve been through, after years of friendship, he just doesn’t care anymore. That’s what hurts the most.

Whatever. I’m done.

goodbye love.

Sunday was the last showing of Love is a 4 Letter Word. I’m going to miss this show a lot. It has been such an amazing experience for me in so many ways. I made some incredible new friends. I learned so much from Heather, Cammie, and Mae Ann. And I realized how much I really do love acting and late night rehearsals and tech week… everything. And to think, I almost didn’t try out. (I have Tim to thank for pushing me)

“On Tidy Endings” was an experience in itself. I learned so much about the play and PUC’s reaction to homosexuality. Most people came up to me saying it was such an intense play and that they were really glad it was performed. Most were shocked it even was performed. I can understand that from their perspective; even I was fairly hesitant about taking on this role. But, I have absolutely no regrets. This play is not a glorification of homosexuality–it is a story about love, life, and letting go. And it was amazing.